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Mistake?

No, I’m not gonna waste my time regretting.
Every mistake we ever made is what we chose to do. Just like how its your choice to do good or bad. Don’t ever blame someone or something. It’s your fault. You chose to make yourself regret. Watch what you say to someone, it can hurt them for the rest of their lives. Always think before you act.

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Trust.

True friends? Nah. When we tell each other our secrets at that moment of course we promise/swear each other we’ll never tell anyone. Watch after you get into a fight, one ends up opening their mouth. When you both talked shit about someone behind their back one ends up going up to the person and says, “oh I talked shit about you too but SHE/HE said..” exaggerates and pulls them self out. I never understood why people do that but looking back I, myself have done that too. We’re all human, we’re greedy and we only care about ourselves. Trust no one but yourself.

(Source: isarahkim)

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When I look at this picture, tears fill my eyes.  So at about 1AM my girls called me out to go drinking. I started off in such a good mood. I can’t really drink much but for some reason that day, every sip I took was so fucking good and just slid down my throat. I started drinking more and more ordering more and more. I was so happy. I stood up and tried to walk to the bathroom and I couldn’t hold myself up. I kept falling and I couldn’t get my act straight. After a bit I see myself calling my ex. Me: Babe don’t you fucking miss me?Him: I do miss you..Me: Where are you?Him: I’m playing pool.Me: I’m sitting here crying over you and you’re playing what? pool? Are you fucking serious? One of my girls took my phone away from me and told him that I’m drunk and not to pick up my calls if I call him. I sent him texts. I miss you. I think I’m going crazy. Don’t ignore my calls. Im fine. Deadass I’m fine. Why are you ignoring me. T_T. T_TT_T. Hm? My guy friends tried picking me up and I started yelling to get the fuck away from me. After we all went to go eat some place else. I started begging my older sisters to call him that it’s my wish and that there’s nothing else that would make me more happy. My other friends called me up to meet them outside so I went alone to meet them. I was so drunk that they had to come get me. They were taking care of me and were trying to wake me up. My phone started to ring so I picked up and one of my older sisters told me that he’s on his way here so hurry up and come. Right after I hung up tears filled my eyes and I started running. My friends were behind me following me, I kept falling and falling bleeding on my knees. They tried to pick me up but I told them not to touch me that I can get up myself. One of my guy friends picked me up and took me to the place. I went inside and saw him with his friends. He looked at me, and he turned his head away. My heart was broken. I went up to him and said let’s talk. He said later and I waited. We decided to go karaoke. The taxi came and I ignored him and got inside the cab. He told my older sisters to go with me first that he’ll come after. We arrived and he came after. Everyone went inside to karaoke. He took me to the stairs.  Him: What? What do you have to talk about?Me: What do you mean what? I can’t miss you? I called you because I wanted to see you. I tried and tried to forget you and get you off my head. But whenever I go through my phone book I miss us. I know you don’t like me anymore.. andHim: It’s not that I don’t like you.Me: Then what, why the hell did you break up with me?Him: Because you left, you moved. It would be harder to see each other and there are so many other guys out there in this world. Guys much better then me. Me: I don’t need them, I need you. I wake up crying everday. Do you know that? You know I loved you, why would you leave me like that. I want to give you everything. Him: It’s not that..  It’s cus’ you’re young right now that’s why you’re thinking like this. I broke up with my first love and after a year you’re the girl I went out with. Wait for time to pass, you’ll regret that you went out with me you’ll meet a much better guy.Me: So much time passed, I can’t forget you.Him: Not even a month passed, Erase my number it’s going to help.Me: No, I’m not going to. Tears filled my eyes at this point.Him: So what do you want me to do?Me: Get a girlfriend, show me that you’re going out with another girl and I’ll be able to forget you. I heard there’s a new girl at you’re school and she’s really pretty.Him: She’s not.Me: Please.. help me forget you. Him: I don’t like you being like this. Drinking and calling me up, if you really want to talk to me call me when you’re sober. You want a hug? I nodded my head and he hugged me. I started crying so much. He put my head on his shoulders and he put my hair back for me. I missed this so much. I missed this. I was so happy but at the same depressed. This was all I needed. He told me that he had a hard time trying to forget about his first love. They say that guys can never forget their first love that they take it to their graves and that girls have only one spot in their heart and it’s the person that they currently love right now. I’m going to never forget him no matter what. He taught me a lesson. Now, looking at myself I know I was drunk and looked stupid. But, I’m satisfied. If it wasn’t for yesterday I would still be crying everyday over him and that would be more stupid. I want to thank him for teaching me a lesson. Even though you get another girlfriend or whatever I’ll always love you though. 
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Hiding behind a screen.

Anonymous. Saying whatever you want to say, talking shit. I don’t know what the person ever did to you in your life but being anonymous is not “winning”. Have you ever thought about how the person feels after you say all that crap? If you really hate the person telling them straight up is better for you and the other. Hiding behind a screen is proving that you don’t have the guts to go up to the person and say what you need to say, being scared. Don’t be a pussy. 

(Source: isarahkim)

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Adults always use to tell me to grow the fuck up. I never actually knew what they meant. I would just tell them to leave me the fuck alone that I’m grown. Like who are you to tell me to do anything? Now looking at myself I’m 15, smoke, drink, got locked up, expelled from my school, etc. It would take days for me to call out all the little fucked up things I did till now. What the hell did my parents do to me that I had to give them so much pain? I can’t thank them enough, just the fact that they even brought me into this world. When I’m out at 2AM partying outside having fun my parents are home, worrying, taking sleeping pills. I never really thought about that. Our parents don’t cook us food, provide us everything, & stay with us for the rest of our lives. Instead of regretting after they leave, just getting my act straight now is whats best. I’m gonna grow up.

(Source: isarahkim)

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